How early did Jesus know?
One conventional answer is that he was born to die, and as God incarnate he knew this all along. Even if we wait for explicit biblical references, though, it is clear that Jesus saw the cross looming up a long time before he got there.
And yet he kept walking forward. He kept teaching. He kept healing. He kept praying. He kept on doing what he was here to do.
This is the way life responds to death and fear.
A word to myself today.